The Fixing of the Knee – Take Two

By the time most of you read this, I will be in the pre-op area about to get my knee fixed. My husband and I have been self-employed and tried to get health insurance coverage for over five years. Since breast cancer automatically qualifies me for our state’s version of Medicare, I now have insurance coverage until at least one year after my diagnosis. As my doctor put it, my car is in the shop, so I might as well get everything taken care of.

I have a mildly torn lateral meniscus. I have no idea how it happened. I was in San Francisco, and I would love to say that I slipped on stage during my first ever drag king show tune. Or that I did it breakdancing. Or that I was helping to protect the rebel headquarters. Or that I tore it doing something unspeakable while at the Folsom Street Fair. But no – I have no story.

My knee has been messed up for over two years. It’s kept me from doing things to stay fit like running or walking, and it’s kept me from doing things I love like yoga, hiking and dancing. I would normally be thrilled by the fact that I was finally going to have my knee fixed, but I’ve been having mini panic attacks since this past Tuesday about this surgery. Rationally I know I’ll be fine. It’s a quick and easy procedure being done by a good doctor in a nice hospital. But irrationally, I’m terrified.

I’ll explain in more detail later, but this is the second time I’ve been in for this surgery. The last time I was in the pre-op area, my lumpectomy incision popped open because I had a huge abscess in my breast. My knee surgery was cancelled last minute while my family rushed me over to UT. I ended up having to have emergency surgery that evening, and the complications that have ensued have been awful. All of this was caused by a shitty luck set of dominoes, not by any care that I received at UT.

I desperately want this surgery to be done before my first appointment for radiation. Otherwise I’ll have to wait at least two more months to attempt it again. So as irrational as it may be any prayers, good thoughts, mojo, juju or voodoo magic that you can send would be greatly appreciated. See you on the other side. Don’t worry. Hugh’s riding shotgun on this one as well. He’s even brought a friend along for the ride.


15 Comments on The Fixing of the Knee – Take Two

  1. Alicia (foodycat)
    September 3, 2013 at 9:11 am (1 year ago)

    I can see why it makes sense to have the surgery while you are covered, but jiminy crickets your poor body! One damn thing after another!

  2. Tanaz
    September 3, 2013 at 9:30 am (1 year ago)

    Best of luck Kristina,
    I hope Hugh and his friend help out with the recovery. I guess you might as well get everything done now that you’re in the shop, but you poor thing.

  3. Heather in SF
    September 3, 2013 at 10:13 am (1 year ago)

    Good luck with your surgery! Keep your eyes on the prize of walking and mobility, and I hope to hear of you dancing soon.

  4. Carrie @ poet in the pantry
    September 3, 2013 at 10:15 am (1 year ago)

    Lots of good thoughts going your way! Definitely want to get that fixed while you can. Hope Hugh and his friend keep their eyes on you–you’ll need their loving care after!

  5. elizabeth
    September 3, 2013 at 11:07 am (1 year ago)

    Good luck and good vibes sent your way!

  6. Darlynne
    September 3, 2013 at 11:17 am (1 year ago)

    That’s the thing about panic attacks: logic and rationale go right out the window, as required. We’re all here for you.

    • Darlynne
      September 4, 2013 at 12:07 pm (1 year ago)

      I forgot to ask: What’s the new guy’s name?

  7. Dawn
    September 3, 2013 at 11:50 am (1 year ago)

    This time, no worries. Thinking of you and Marcus.

  8. mellissa @ ibreatheimhungry
    September 3, 2013 at 1:09 pm (1 year ago)

    Oh dear! Hang in there kid! Sending internet hugs your way for an uneventful procedure this time!

  9. Caroline
    September 3, 2013 at 3:59 pm (1 year ago)

    You’ve been on my mind. Sending you lots of good mojo and prayers! XO

  10. Tanaz
    September 3, 2013 at 9:12 pm (1 year ago)

    I hope they gave you something for the pain. I was just reading what Marcus wrote in FFD and all the pain and problems you have had that you didn’t even mention here. I am so impressed that you have still your sense of humor. It’ll get better. It has too.

  11. Steph
    November 7, 2013 at 7:18 pm (12 months ago)

    Hey Kristina, this is “datgrlstef”.. I just happened over at FFD and was wondering how you were doing. I was definitely sad to read that you have not been in good health. Unfortunately, I don’t get to go on FFD as often as I would like.. so I’m totally out of the loop. It is really good to see that you are done with radiation treatments! I wish you and Marcus the best anniversary ever. Hugs to both of you! :) (I’ve added you to my blog reads so I can keep myself up to date on how you are doing!)

  12. Robynski
    December 4, 2013 at 10:14 pm (11 months ago)

    Kristina, I hope you are doing okay. I’ve thought of you so often lately. I pray for you to find the strength you need to get through your battle and thrive, daily.

    Just needed to tell you I’m thinking of you and yours. Hugs! To you and the family and Hugh.


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